I was blind when I said my vows, literally. I didn’t want to wear my glasses so instead I tried putting contact lenses on the day before the BIG day, but just couldn’t get those little suckers on. I was impatient, nervous and jittery about putting anything on my eye.
So this is how it feels to feel abandoned emotionally. I’m sitting up at 2:00 a.m. for the second night in a row because I can’t go back to sleep. Thoughts race through my mind as I view Adam’s social networking page and see what is happening right in front of me. He is flirting with two women on his page.
Tired, exhausted and only midday, I stood in line at the supermarket and looked straight at the flaming hot chips. My mouth watered and my eyes widened when I saw them so I snatched them and set them down for the cashier to scan them. That’s so weird, I thought.
Dressed in a white bridal gown, I remember sitting on a bench minutes before I walked down the aisle. I must have had a look in my eyes of innocence, the unknown, a bit of fear, nervousness, enough to alert my father. Standing in front of me, he looked down at me with my mother at his side, and said, “Come on. We’ll leave everyone and go to Vegas, just you, your mom and me. What do you say?”