Dressed in a white bridal gown, I remember sitting on a bench minutes before I walked down the aisle. I must have had a look in my eyes of innocence, the unknown, a bit of fear, nervousness, enough to alert my father. Standing in front of me, he looked down at me with my mother at his side, and said, “Come on. We’ll leave everyone and go to Vegas, just you, your mom and me. What do you say?” I couldn’t. I didn’t want to. I just knew I was going to marry Adam. I had a feeling in my gut, my heart longed to be with him forever.
I didn’t know exactly why my dad said that to me back then, but today, as I write this, I am grateful for him to have given me that opportunity to just walk away from what could have been the biggest mistake in my life. And he didn’t care what the cost would have been. Money didn’t matter. What mattered most was that I was doing what I wanted to do, what felt right for me, and that meant leaving everything behind.
A part of me died that day, an identity of self, who I thought I was, wanted to be in life, what defined me. My journey with Adam was about to begin and at that very moment, I thought it was going to be “happily ever after.”
Guiding Lesson: You can make choices in your life that don’t have to compromise who you are. You just need to know who you are before you make the choices that fit best in your life. What is your truth? Are you living it? What or who prevents you from being you? What or who supports it? Find it, embrace it, unfold it, and live it out loud.
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