Grace, you know I’ve been hibernating for the past year. I’ve had to recover from the shock of my MacBook having been microwaved. Not only did I attempt to retrieve my data, I’ve had to recover emotionally. I realized that the recovery of my computer data, which I’m happy to say was retrievable, parallels divorce.
While navigating through the process of divorce, I have delved into my own personal memory bank to recover the good, the bad and the ugly of my marriage. Adam and I have wonderful memories that we will always share. Then, some memories trigger negative feelings of being in a relationship. While other times, no matter how ugly, some memories were ones we needed to experience to become better spouses.
As I am overjoyed that the computer data was recovered, I’m also glad to have a memory bank of the good times with Adam. I still smile and think I was blessed. How could I not be? I have two wonderful sons.
Cheers to that…I’m ready for that glass of Merlot tonight.
Hibernating is not such a bad thing. Nature has this built into the seasons. There is a time to live with full zest and there is a time to retreat and reflect. Humans have not incorporated this into their lives unless the world around them forces this through a hardship or difficult time.
Eve, I am glad you are taking time to follow your own rhythm. One cannot live the life the way it used to be after going through what you went through. What you considered normal, no longer exists. A new normal needs to be redefined and created. This requires reflection and going inward.
As you have discovered by going inward, you have found, it’s not all that bad. There are some good things that were not destroyed. Your good memories are still good. Your beautiful children are still your precious children that you cherish. Your inner beauty as a person is still there and is being refined through this process.
Embrace the quiet. Follow yourself to where you can rest in order to rebuild. I guess there is some truth to the saying in making sure you get your beauty rest. It will do wonders. Rest up and let your beauty shine through.