Tag: divorced mom


Status: It’s Complicated. No, it isn’t. You’re Married!

Who would have thought? I was clueless until it hit me like a ton of bricks. Now that hurts.

So this is how it feels to be abandoned emotionally. I’m sitting up at 2:00 a.m. for the second night in a row because I can’t go back to sleep. Thoughts race through my mind as I view Adam’s social networking page and see what is happening right in front of me. He is flirting with two women on his page. He has no idea that I can view what he posts on someone else’s page and vice versa. He should stick to what he knows: taking vital signs in the clinic, not virtually.

I have been through so much with this man. My head is spinning. Immediately, I want to file for divorce, yet my heart does its magic of doing what it can to stay intact. Adam’s escaping from a home that he made with two children and me. I thought everything was fine. Yes, we’ve had our ups and downs just like any married couple. I supported him through medical school and his residency program so he could fulfill his lifelong dream of becoming a physician. I set aside my dreams to help him realize his. The children came into our lives and we focused on them and forgot about each other. I was content and oblivious to anything different in our lives. Now I need to find out, why?

Guiding Lesson: So why do women give up their entire being to nurture the people in their lives? They give, give, until there is nothing left. They go through the motions not realizing that their Spirit has died. It’s like seeing a vase break in slow motion and ignoring that it broke. However, each step you take continues to cut deeper and cause wounds from the broken glass (the reality) you refuse to see and clean up off the floor. Don’t you believe you deserve to live life to the fullest? Don’t you believe you were created for joy? You don’t have to be strong. You just need to wake up and find the support you need to create a life filled with abundant love. This will not only allow you to soar and be the woman you are created to be, but will also inspire your children to have the courage to face the truth/the reality of life and not be afraid of it. Remember, courage is fear that said its prayers and chooses to believe that truth will lead to joy. You are created for JOY! Believe, have faith and now go and live each moment with eyes wide open for it is in this state that you will be able to receive the blessings and graces that were always meant to be yours.


A Part of Me Died on This Day

Dressed in a white bridal gown, I remember sitting on a bench minutes before I walked down the aisle. I must have had a look in my eyes of innocence, the unknown, a bit of fear, nervousness, enough to alert my father.  Standing in front of me, he looked down at me with my mother at his side, and said, “Come on. We’ll leave everyone and go to Vegas, just you, your mom and me. What do you say?” I couldn’t. I didn’t want to. I just knew I was going to marry Adam. I had a feeling in my gut, my heart longed to be with him forever.

I didn’t know exactly why my dad said that to me back then, but today, as I write this, I am grateful for him to have given me that opportunity to just walk away from what could have been the biggest mistake in my life. And he didn’t care what the cost would have been. Money didn’t matter. What mattered most was that I was doing what I wanted to do, what felt right for me, and that meant leaving everything behind.

A part of me died that day, an identity of self, who I thought I was, wanted to be in life, what defined me. My journey with Adam was about to begin and at that very moment, I thought it was going to be “happily ever after.”

truth, living spirit, grace, marriage, divorce, single mom, spirituality, selfGuiding Lesson: You can make choices in your life that don’t have to compromise who you are. You just need to know who you are before you make the choices that fit best in your life. What is your truth? Are you living it? What or who prevents you from being you? What or who supports it? Find it, embrace it, unfold it, and live it out loud.


Why This is a Great Balancing Act

working mom, single, job, balancing actA job for someone can be a chore. A job for another can be a mission in life. A job for me is a great balancing act between being a wife, a mother, and a good employee, or if you’re divorced, a single mom raising children, shuffling between doctor’s appointments, extracurricular activities, evening work events, homework, etc. This list is endless.

As a working mom and publicist, my job has kept me grounded. During challenging times in my life, I could always count on a colleague of mine to understand what I was experiencing and give advice to just keep my head above water. It also helped when I asked to get mundane tasks from her so I wouldn’t have to think when I couldn’t focus on important accounts. My life was unraveling before me, fast.

Guiding Lesson: There are pearls of wisdom in the moment. Open your eyes, your heart, and your life to the now. You will discover the graces and blessings in your work, the people around you, and the strength you will need.