I smiled and feigned excitement when I heard Jonathan took a few steps. Secretly, I was crying inside. And when my nanny left, I cried uncontrollably. I hated not being present for my son’s major milestones. It wasn’t fair. I was his mother and I should’ve been there to see everything. Everything. Why did I have to go to work?
Returning to work after maternity leave can be welcoming and at the same time, conflicting. I now have a baby to take care of and I don’t want to leave him behind. We have been inseparable, carrying him in my wrap that my friend gave me.